Morning Everyone,
Interesting last night and morning for me. So I have been pissed,angry vengeful beyond belief for the past I would say 18 hours. I even forced myself to go to sleep. I went thru some of the hardest shyt personally and business wise the last year and a half. Long story short found out who was the cause of it all yesterday because one of the people involved called me to ask for my forgiveness. I spent about 6 hours on the phone with this person. I mean they really tried to ruin me so much to the point that they knew my retribution would be swift and harsh. This person informed me that they had moved to L.A. and bought a handgun cuz they thought that I or my people would come after them, out of the shadows or something. Anyway I told this person that was never the case and that I had prayed and forgiven whom ever was involved awhile ago, and they had nothing to worry about. Now the kicker after much convo with this person and this person not knowing everything I already knew, just spilled the beans. And the mastermind comes out to be someone who is very close to me and it has all been verified by me with my own eyes viewing the documents and everything else involved. The rage came back hard yesterday very very hard. I am one of those people that if you dont bother me I wont bother you. But if you come at me I will give you a war that you can not comprehend. All from this one friggin person everything in the last year and a half can be attributed to. I trusted this person. I know I am probably not making any sense cuz I am trying really to control my anger. My level of faith goes back and forth at times and I wanted to pray this morning but I decided not to cuz it would calm me down and I wanted to be anger and plot revenge. I open my yahoo mail and I get my Daily Devotional...this is odd because for some reason I have not received it via email in about 4 months. Then this morning it is there. I saw that as a sign and I read it. I am still angry and praying that I have a peace not to ruin this persons life. These people stole $380,000 this year by duplicating my checks and over a 3 day period clearing out one of my accounts(some of you on here knew about this LB and jkrunsthecity and Fikays i think). Caused a lot of turmoil in my personal life the past few years. A divorce from me and my son's mother early last year and were catalyst in my visitations issues regarding my son now. The whole while smiling in my face..PHUCK!!!!
(some of what I read) Habakkuk 3:17-18
and the closing of the email
Father in heaven, I come to You trusting that You are my Deliverer. No matter what is going on around me, today I choose to bless and praise Your name. I choose to connect to You, knowing that You are the source of my strength, hope, and peace. In Jesus’ Name
